I don't know how the gospel was presented to you, but I am
convinced that Jesus will not come into anybody's life as a guest. He will
either enter as Lord or He will remain outside. God opened my eyes to this
reality on what began as a normal Friday in February 1989.
I had driven about 3 hours to the city of Muenster ,
Germany .
While driving, my friend and I listened to a teaching tape by Wilhelm Pahls, a
German evangelist. I had never heard a man speaking so passionately about
bringing people to Jesus, never before and hardly ever since. I knew that the
things he said were true, and it was as if he spoke directly to me. Every word
pierced my heart. Without having a scientific proof for it, I knew that
the Bible was God's word. I had no defense, no reason not to accept what Jesus
had done for me and that He now wanted to come into my life as Savior and Lord.
After we finished listening to the tape, I had maybe the most terrible two
hours of my life. We went to visit my friend's girlfriend in a hospital, but I
could not participate in the unfolding conversation whatsoever. There was a war
going on inside of me! A part of me wanted what Jesus was offering, another
part of me wanted to stay in control of my life, and reasoned against it. And
one of the main reasons why I hesitated was that I knew I could never have the
kind of sex I desired if I really followed Jesus.
I finally found a reason to leave the room and went back to
the parking lot. I could not look into anybody's face and everything seemed to
be dark and gray around me. I arrived at the car, but instead of getting my
guitar out of the trunk I sat down in the driver's seat and prayed.
I do not remember what exact words I used when I
prayed, but when I opened my eyes, the world looked different. Everything dark
and gray was gone. I got out of the car and I recognized trees, people, LIFE! I
literally saw the world with new eyes! I read later in 2. Corinthians 5:17 that
those who are in Christ are a new creation, and I sure felt like that!
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